Fearless

One day.

2011-12-28T08:09:00.001-05:00

MY ULTIMATE DREAM OF ALL TIME:

TO SEE THE WORLD GOD HAS CREATED FOR US!

Take me back to the city of lights

2011-12-20T12:22:00.001-05:00

By the moment.

I'm usually a person that just lives by the moment, whether that's a good thing or bad thing, up till this day, I still don't know. Many things have happened in just a single year and as I reflect on the year 2K11, it doesn't seem that bad a year. Yes, there were definitely ups and downs but to me, it had more "ups" then "downs". And yes, this post is gonna be a rather draggy reflection. And yes, you can don't read it if you want.

In the beginning of the year, I finally tasted the experience of working life and it truly, truly sucked. Maybe it was just the company I was working for but being an admin is really...let's just say it sucked. Very badly. At least, I got paid with money I-have-no-idea-gone-where. But then again, it was an experience for me and the camaraderie I had for the last few working days were somewhat enjoying. (:

Yet in the midst of my working days, a few life-changing events happened. Such as my 17th birthday, a closure to a 2 year odd relationship, the collection of my O level results (which I'm rather pleased with btw), choosing my course in life and letting an idiot draw my eyebrows with a permanent marker. I would love to elaborate more of each but I guess some things just can't be said (Especially the last one -_-). But all that happened in just a short span of 2-3 months. Its amazing how the speed of time can vary in every single event eh?

When it came to April, yet another three significant events happened. I started a new relationship (and no, I can assure you 140% that he is DEFINITELY NOT the rebound and neither am I a flirt/someone who can't live without a man in her life.), started my tertiary education and got a new bunch of friends whom I have learnt to treasure overtime. I even joined a CCA which I would have never imagined myself joining cause I hated sports more than anything else. But well, there I was and am, in a Sports CCA that requires a lot of time and money.

And here comes the fast-forward part. From May to August, a lot of things happened in a blur. My boyfriend turned a full-fledged 21-year-old, my best friend shaved bald for a good cause and the worst part, whoever said Poly life was slack, is the biggest liar of all time. No seriously. I have never worked so hard on my homework during my sec school days and I think I didn't even bother doing it unless my teacher was getting pissed. Now, a single assignment deadline can get me running to and fro JUST to hand it up on time. No wonder time passed so fast during this period and it is definitely not cause I was having fun.

Well at least I had the next 2 months as a holiday to repay the loss of sleep. I also nearly became a new face for EGP.com but due to my lack of modeling sense, I got rejected. Also, I got my results of semester 1.1 and apparently, TP doesn't think I'm working hard enough.

Well, TP... SCREW YOU@*(&#(&^(#!*#)_(*@_&$#^$^!%@^%#%!!!!!!!

And suddenly, in a flash, its already November. The start of my second semester and I would like you to know that it is EVEN MORE DIFFICULT than the first. So say good-bye to the GPA of 3.5 and above. Hopefully I can get my GPA to be pulled up by just a margin and at least get a 3. But judging by the amount of deadlines and the knowledge I have of each module, hurhur, thats gonna be on a "Chuck Norris" level. Then again, I'll just have to work extra hard for my future I guess.

However, amidst the work load and the tests, NSF FINALLY, FINALLY, returned my boyfriend his pink IC and its ORD LOHHHHHHH! :D Which simply means we can spend more time together and honestly, I thank God he only had a few more months of NSF when I first got together with him. I don't think I can withstand 2 years of that NS nonsense without literally smashing the island into smithereens. So here I am, a super happy girl spending an enormous amount of time with boyfriend. Don't worry, I didn't neglect my friends or family so its fine.

With that, it sums up pretty much what happened so far in 2K11. This post was actually much much longer but I edited it to well, not bore you guys, we can't have that happening can we? (; Anyways, thats besides the point. What amazes me most, is how each of the intricate events linked to one another resulting to where I am now, at the end of the year. Its like this huge giant web that ultimately linked to one another at the end. I can't tell you how in just simple sentences but trust me its just like a HIMYM episode where certain episodes result into another happening. I guess I have to really thank God for such an eventful year and be grateful some things didn't happen otherwise.

Your treasure is where your heart lies.

2011-11-07T10:30:00.003-05:00

Yes, I am.

Firstly, I must declare I'm a pig for sleeping so much these few days. Just today, after dinner, I laid in my bed and slept without even knowing I fell asleep! Thats how tired I've been especially with all the late nights and all :/ <s> Maybe thats why my period is killing me right now. </s> Anyways, school has started and the assignments are starting to pour in one by one. Supposed to do my portfolio of 800 words today but ended up sleeping like a log and watching transformers 3 :/

Oh, Gorden came over awhile today too and brought some marinated beef over. ITS UBER NICE but then it suddenly hit me. I realized all the food he brought over to my house so far has one thing in common: THEY'RE ALL HIGH IN CALORIES. He brought back this crispy, thin, looking-like-bacon thingy from taiwan and ohmygoodness, its dang good as a snack and i cleared half the box as the result. Now, the marinated beef too. My mum and I cleared it just now at dinner x_x At first we only fried half of the box, but we ended frying all. Ugh, Gorden, you're out to make me fat aren't you? Even then I'M STILL NOT RUNNING WITH YOU! ):

Speaking of that, I was test-shooting for this blogshop EarlGreyParty.com (go check it out if you can! They sell really good quality stuff at decent prices!) Its owned by Falice's sister and its doing pretty well too! They even appeared on a TV interview! But anyways, I'm side-tracking. I really kinda wanted the job cause the pay is good and the hours suits my poly timetable schedule. But I don't think I'll get it I guess. They just showed the sneak peaks for their next collection and apparently, another girl went for a test-shoot for them as well. She's really pretty and looks good on the camera PLUS she knows how to do her own makeup. (LOL, which I don't and the results are as bad as my cookies.)

So NATURALLY, I feel kinda upset and insecurity seeps through once again till well, I saw the picture above. It was always in my tumblr collection album but I guess its God's way of telling me that I'm beautiful and always will be in His eyes. Which is why I should stop saying I'm not pretty enough, I'm fat and comparing myself to those better looking than me. :/ Its a bad habit of mine that even my boyfriend can't stand but after this, I'll do my best to stop! So no more! I'm gonna be BHB all the way and be ohprettyDonna (; HAHAHAHAS!

But nevertheless, just want to thank the people at EGP for giving me a chance and especially to God for letting me know how much I'm worth. (: Its miraculous how He never fails to love me and push me on even though I've sinned so greatly against Him. But then again He is my Daddy God, a Father worthy to be praised :D

Oh, and "Honeymoon Period" may seem to be over but I still love my boy very very much so I guess there's no such thing as a "Honeymoon Period" anymore (:

Not Up-To-Date

2011-10-27T08:26:00.000-04:00

Swinging from time to time.

School is like some new form of carcinogen for me right now. Especially this semester. I am literally getting KILLED slowly and painfully by the amount of workload. My whole month is filled with deadlines, tests and quizzes, leaving only 4 days of rest. And if you think thats bad enough, thats only 3 modules worth of assessment.

I have 7 modules. -_-

And just when the boy is about to ORD too. Argh, when ever will our schedules stop crashing? Its always "He's free, I'm not free" or vice versa. Truly, brutally and highly irritating. I just hope when my next holidays come, we'll both be free and we can finally spend more quality time together without him booking in for duty or me rushing home to do my assignments. But nevertheless, I guess we're learning how to treasure our time together and not take many things for granted. (:

Meanwhile, I realized I really missed my poly friends during the holidays. (We tried our very best to plan an outing together but we failed miserably. -_-) Especially torturing them with my sudden outbursts of wackiness. hahahas! But I missed hanging out with them and for that, I'm glad school started! (Yet, when I think about the workload...ugh.)

Speaking about friends, one of those closest to me has been acting rather weird recently. Saying eccentric things that got me all confused. And apparently, for no rhyme or reason too. Hopefully things will be back to normal soon and well, let's just pray she isn't thinking too much (or maybe its me. LOL) .

But yeps! So to my dearest, I HAVE UPDATED MY BLOG. WHAT ABOUT YOU HUH?!?!? ); STOP PLAYING BATTLEFIELD 3 AND UPDATE IT! RAWR!

Misery

2011-09-23T07:33:00.000-04:00

Honestly, I've never felt this disappointed with myself before.
But when someone who matters the most tell you that he is disappointed with you.. its beyond misery yea?

insomniac

2011-09-04T13:32:00.000-04:00

oh someone save me, I can't....

SLEEP! ARGHHH!!!!

Roses and xoxo.

2011-08-15T06:21:00.002-04:00

Heheh, don't we look alike? (:

I'm supposed to be studying Prinprac now but... i'm alr in a holiday mood~ Just have to survive this week and I can attain my 7 WEEKS HOLIDAY! muahahahas! but its just kinda sian because well, when I'm enjoying my holidays, Drusilla and Huimin are having their exams ); sucks pretty much when all my timings clash with my close ones, ALL.THE.TIME. *argh* Wish my poly classmates were more of the go-out kind, then we can go shopping together and do many nonsensical things.

Oh wells, on another note, I've alr planned a bit of my holidays! I'm gonna wakeboard every week (if I can find kakis to go with me :/) and learn new stunts! Hopefully, I can get into IVPs next year and bring something home. hohoho! okays, I'm just being overly-ambitious here. When I actually can do surface tricks and wake-jumps then maybe I'll think about it. (:

Also, I'm thinking of probably learning the basics of bass guitar during the holidays. But that's just like a passing thought to you know, get time to pass by during the holidays. If not, I'll really be some old ahjumma, everyday staying at home to watch kdramas. Grr, its at times like this where i just wanna scream
"NS INFANTRY, HAND OVER MY BOYF NOW BEFORE I TURN THE ISLAND OF TEKONG TO ASHES! ):" kidding! (okays, on second thought, maybe I'm not :/) But yea, I just can't wait for 3 more months when he'll be out and free. Then there'll be no such thing as being love sick anymore.

Okays, enough with the love sick nonsense, if not I can go on forever. One more week and I'll be free. Just be content with that for now, Donna. Say goodbye to assignments, tests and presentations for your well-deserved 7 weeks! HALLELUJAH! :D

Mary Moon

2011-06-24T06:34:00.002-04:00

One more paragraph,

One more citation,

One more excel sheet,

and I'M DONE WITH MY HOLIDAY ASSIGNMENTS!

But no, I'm not done with it yet. Actually, I haven't started on any of them since i came back from my massage. (hoho!)

Two more days till poly life resumes and I'm literally packed with activities. Made plans to hang out with my cell the whole day and most importantly, Gorden. HALLELUJAH~ gosh, seriously, our timings really clash. its my break and its his confinement. again. -.- (but I shall not complain lest I become a naggy old woman like my mum :X)

Nevertheless, these two weeks has really proved to be a break for me and the assignments gave me a chance to stay at home (more often than usual) for the past few days. Which also means I have been on WGM marathons and stalking people on facebook from time to time. Went swimming too and I'm currently donna black! Drusilla says I'm blacker than her but she's just exaggerating ); Hopefully I get to swim more often than the past term. Maybe I should swim early in the morning. :/ Nah, waking up at that hour is never going to happen.

Btw, Janice and Sonia are coming back on the 22nd July! And they're performing with David Choi, AWESOME! :D Gonna save money up to buy the tickets! Hopefully by the time I do so, I won't be faced with the "SOLDOUT" issue. :/ But oh wells, we'll see how it goes! (:

Lastly, to top it off with a very late but HOT update,

I FINALLY GOT 2PM AND KIM HYUN JOONG'S POSTERS!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT! :D

They're outstanding figures and charming faces are the latest collection to my wall. HAHAHAS! Imagine, waking up everyday to the hot bods of 2pm. How can life get any better than that? (other than waking up to the ACTUAL real life 2pm in your room. hohoho!) but yea, thats all :D My fan girl moments are over (for now).

Never lose sight.

2011-06-06T10:50:00.088-04:00

Wishing.

I don't think I'm gonna fail my Fpsych term test. i KNOW so. And the feeling of knowing it is ultimate sianness. I could have mugged better but i guess, what has been done can't be undone. Just have to focus better on my projects and the assignments to come i guess. Moreover its the start of another two weeks and I have never felt it so strong before. -Sigh-
Thought shopping therapy would help but it didn't. In fact, it just made things worse. Seems as though everything is going against me today. ): Well, only happy thing to be about (okays, maybe not.) is that I leveled in maple. LOLS. yea, i'm mapling for awhile again cause coleslaws need one hour of maple everyday to level their rings. Awesome right? (; hahas!
But yea, only other thing to be happy about right now is that I CAN FINALLY SLEEP LATE TMR AND GO FOR MY SWIM :D Booyeahh~ Can't wait to get fitter and tanner! SNSD legs and abs, here i come! hahahas! Hope it doesn't rain tomorrow if not I'll be stuck at home and that just sucks big time. :/
Oh wells, guess I'll just have to sleep off this moody feeling and just hope that tomorrow I'll feel better. Wish me luck~

There hasn't been a day where by I'd wake up not thinking about you.

Hello, Stranger.

2011-05-24T08:01:00.092-04:00

Perfect Two- Auburn

I should really be starting on that last 5 qns of my Fpsych quiz. But here I am randomly blogging without a purpose instead of drowning myself in the misery of the brain. Plus I have some 1k essay due next week and an outline of ANOTHER 1k essay due this fri.

You know, sometimes i really wonder why I took this course and I just hope i didn't make a wrong choice like a friend I met in wake-boarding yesterday. She actually took ChemEng first for 2 years and decided that she hated it a lot so she dropped out of ChemEng, went to CCM and now she's a 21 year old freshie. (hoho, guess which hairy barbarian is in ChemEng now? :x) Just wonder if I would ever make a decision like her and drop out of ECS too :/ Hopefully not and hopefully the stress level is still at a manageable level for me in the future although its already killing me now :/

Moreover, I'm in an all girls class and its a lot more difficult to work with them than guys. True, we get things done a whole lot faster, but still I feel like I'm walking into a minefield everyday where one wrong word causes you an instant death. Just ask for God's guidance and hope He grants me the PATIENCE (and a whole lotta tolerance) to deal with my new-found friends.

Also, I absolutely hate my figure now. I MISS MY FLAT TUMMY! Its like getting dam fat lar even with wake-boarding training every week! wah lao, can really see the T_MMY sia.........): feel so tempted to just keep running and swimming everyday ): not gonna drink gongcha with pearls anymore! ARGH! hate this hate this hate this! I'm getting dam fat! &%^(^*$(&*@^#&^#$)@#&%!!!!

Oh wells, kinda wishing it was sat or sun already. Because to most probably the only reader of my blog, I miss you a whole lot and I'll gladly wait up every night till 1 am for you (: Just like how you love me more than *AHEM*, I love you more than my much-needed sleep! HAHAHAS! okays, cheekily-cheesy much but I mean what I say so don't worry about it kays? (:

So yeps, thats just a tiny update on my blog for now or maybe its just cause I'm procrastinating on that last 5 qns of my quiz. ~~(its the latter)~~ And this is good night, off to do my work~ WHEEEE~

4 More Days

2011-05-05T10:59:00.116-04:00

Awesome times (;

Only reason why I'm blogging now is cause..

PSYCH IS ABSOLUTELY KILLING ME ):

Studied for 2 whole hours ytd and I only managed to clear a chapter. But thanks to that, i managed to conquer 14 qns of my monday-dued online quiz. :D Please please let me get good marks! I want to start off my poly academic life well! :/

Oh wells, at least I know I'm able to ace one subject, CSA. (Still find it super geeky of me to know so much about IT stuff but for some reason, it impresses guys. Particularly one. *ahem*) Hanging on to the life of a pathetic temp-admin worker for 2 months sure did me some good after all! I can just slack throughout the whole excel lesson without listening and still know what to do at top-notch speed. How awesome is that! :D But that is for now only though, when it gets tougher, sian.... ):

Hopefully I can keep up with my current focus level for my studies. Maybe it's due to my new friends who are practically smart-asses that ACTUALLY STUDY DURING BREAK TIMES. I should really stick to them more often. Good influence! :D hahas!

Speaking of friends, I have never missed my sec school friends this much before. Especially the jokes and the non-stop guailaning of each other but most importantly, I miss just having them around. ): But things happened and I guess I have to get on with life, yea? Don't know if the situation will ever get better but I'll leave it in God's hands. (:

AT THE VERY LEAST, I HAVE GODZILLA DONSILLA AND CRAZY-ASS HUI MIN! (whom I have been trying to trick my TP friends in saying she's my twin, and surprisingly, it works! :D) And how could I forget the Be-ats? (; Grats to Ting Ying and Steffi for getting baptized last sunday! Especially Ting Ying who has indeed come a long way. I R VERY VERY PROUD OF YA SIS! ;D hahas! doubt she would even see this anyways!

So yeps, life has been normal so far except that I have to suffer for 3 excruciating weeks. Mind you, its only the 3rd day and I'm already having the mood swings according to Hui Min. hais. TIME PLEASE PASS FAST ): oh wells, shall blog when I have time again. Gotta wake up early tmr for 9am school, plus it has been a lengthy post. ):

OYASUMI!

Boardwalk

2011-04-28T12:20:00.000-04:00

MANY MANY THINGS HAS HAPPENED SINCE MY LAST POST!

and since its alr 11:53PM and sch starts at 9 for me tmr,

i'm just gonna number it out for now (;

1) Poly has started and HSS i~~s friggin small~~ ROCKS! :D

2) I'm in an all girl's environment and i'm soooo not used to it ):

OH MY CUTE GUYS! WHERE ARE YOU?

3) FO camp rocked and i got to know an ultrasuperviolet pretty girl called Nicolette!

(oh! i learnt how to shuffle too! *sorta* :D)

4) I GOT MY MACBOOKPRO! which i am currently using to blog ;D jealous much?

AND I FINALLY CAN USE ENRIQUE'S PIC AS MY WALLPAPER!

5) I went to MAROON 5 LIVE! my first concert ever! thanks to my boy! :D happygirl94@hotmail.com

6) Many thanks to Jessie and Gary for the Voyage De La Vie tickets! IT WAS AWESOME! (:

7) COUNTERSTRIKE: NERF GUNS STYLE! in which my mum took the chance to tackle me in front of everyone -.-

8) thoroughly drained due to my recent activities. need to pay back my sleep debt desperately :/

9) and yes, the magical number NINE. the greatest gift God has blessed me with so far (:

A Message In A Bottle,
can sure win a girl's heart. (;

If I die young, bury me in satin.

2011-04-03T08:12:00.000-04:00

HEL-LO! (:

okays, i know its holy and stuff but i WILL share it );

"Jesus looked at them and said,

'With man, this is impossible,

but not with God;

all things are possible with God."

- Mark 10:27

This verse spoke to me during Drusilla's sharing at Titus cell.

Because these few days,

reminiscences from the past kept coming back to me

and i realized how far I've actually come.

At that point of time, I would have never thought that 3 years down the road,

i would be chit-chatting with them or even just sitting down beside them.

everything just seems so..surrealistic now.

and i realized that God truly works in mysterious ways in our lives.

even what seemed impossible then, is possible now.

it just shows that as long as you surrender your all to Him,

he will take care of the rest (:

so i guess i should really be thankful to God for what he has done in my life

and yea! actually, i felt prompted to share it to others

but ~~i'm a chicken,~~ there was no time ):

(and i wanted to play captain's ball today BADLY! btw, we won 16-13 ;D)

so i'll just put in up on my blog! hahas!

okays lar, nth much happened?

other then i cooked at huimin's hse before heading down to hanwen's.

he was giving hannah and huimin singing lessons while i was like

spamming his photobooth! HAHAHAS!

but i did try singing a little, and...

*sexy voice* I'm a freakin' alto *winks*

LOLS!

huimin and hannah are sopranos! (no surprises there!)

wish i could sing that high and angelic, oh wells :/

anyways, gonna grab dinner soon!

craving for Mac but the old lady at home hates it ):

cherrio!

Fourth

2011-03-31T09:42:00.000-04:00

i bring to you,
from the maker of

the rather notorious nonyabazhang.bs
...

OH-PRETTYDONNA.BS
okays i'm just being stupid. -.-
anyways, i'm only going to post whenever i
remember i still have a blog.
in other words, i'm an irregular blogger.
unlike way back in my sec one days LOL
okays lar, when i have something to rant about
i'll post. (;
but for now,
au revior!

Its 12.09am

2011-03-30T12:11:00.000-04:00

My first post! :D
its 12.09am
kthxbai